Wednesday, October 31, 2007
ok.renee says i should,so i will.
unfortunately,i live in the same universe and breathe the same air as Renee.
it's not really a bad thing lah actually.
happy now?
& we both go down together.
we may stay there forever,
just trying to get up.
& i'm sorry,
this wasn't easy,
when i ask you believe me,
and never let go.
But i let go.
sorry Boo.
but you were being selfish.
to me,and everyone else.
but i've learnt from this.
i'm gonna let go of you.
slowly.
it'll hurt,so badly.
i'm sorry if i came in between the two of you.
i'll try to move on,to another girl.
or better,stay single.
alright Boo.
don't cry anymore.
you've still got me,holding on to you.
indeed,i'm contradicting myself.
but you were too.
and if you cry,do it infront of me.
i wanna be the one,
who wipes away your tears.
who hugs you won't look at me.
and to remind you,
there's another day.
the sun will shine again.
just forget yesterday.
Hello Boo,i love you.
:)
but i know someone who loves you more...
unfortunately,i live in the same universe and breathe the same air as Renee.
it's not really a bad thing lah actually.
happy now?
& we both go down together.
we may stay there forever,
just trying to get up.
& i'm sorry,
this wasn't easy,
when i ask you believe me,
and never let go.
But i let go.
sorry Boo.
but you were being selfish.
to me,and everyone else.
but i've learnt from this.
i'm gonna let go of you.
slowly.
it'll hurt,so badly.
i'm sorry if i came in between the two of you.
i'll try to move on,to another girl.
or better,stay single.
alright Boo.
don't cry anymore.
you've still got me,holding on to you.
indeed,i'm contradicting myself.
but you were too.
and if you cry,do it infront of me.
i wanna be the one,
who wipes away your tears.
who hugs you won't look at me.
and to remind you,
there's another day.
the sun will shine again.
just forget yesterday.
Hello Boo,i love you.
:)
but i know someone who loves you more...
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:30 PM.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
it doesn't really matter now,does it.
the girl i trusted most went behind my back and bitched about me.
how very nice of you to do so.
i've got three people to talk to.
supringly,MUMMY!,WALKING BUDDY!,HANDSOME GIRL!
mummy's the best lah.
she rocks.
walking buddy's awesome.
so totally.
and handsome girl.
:) i've got no comments.
anyways,does it feel good.
bitching about others?
you think i'm stupid.
try not to let your blog be discovered by me.
uh huh.
open house!!!!
yesterday night.
damn,
imran,ryan,pravin,thana and ray stayed over,
bitched about others.
ghost stories.
laughed.
wanked!
and sneaked out at 3.30 in the morning for breakfast at macs.
afterwards,freaked Ray out.
played on the road,
in the drain.
pure fun.
fucking computer.!
the girl i trusted most went behind my back and bitched about me.
how very nice of you to do so.
i've got three people to talk to.
supringly,MUMMY!,WALKING BUDDY!,HANDSOME GIRL!
mummy's the best lah.
she rocks.
walking buddy's awesome.
so totally.
and handsome girl.
:) i've got no comments.
anyways,does it feel good.
bitching about others?
you think i'm stupid.
try not to let your blog be discovered by me.
uh huh.
open house!!!!
yesterday night.
damn,
imran,ryan,pravin,thana and ray stayed over,
bitched about others.
ghost stories.
laughed.
wanked!
and sneaked out at 3.30 in the morning for breakfast at macs.
afterwards,freaked Ray out.
played on the road,
in the drain.
pure fun.
fucking computer.!
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 4:31 PM.
the kids that never were.
it breaks my heart to see you now.
cause i know,i'm nothing,
i'm no popular kid.
or a good-looking boy.
but i know,
if you need me,i'll be there.
but all this while,
i was blinded by the fact that
i like you.
and for sure i still do.
that's it,i'm sorry for all bad things i've done.
and thank you
for the splendid time we've spent.
Bet you didn't know,the other day.
as you walked up the stairs,
tears rolled down my cheeks.
Devastated i was,seeing you gone.
i promised myself that i will never cry because of you.
but i did.not once,but plenty.
Now i'm wondering,you cried on the phone once.
Those tears,were they real?
Or were you just toying around with my feelings.
Tell me the truth,cause it would answer a lot.
i'm sorry i got angry.
but you just won't listen to me.
i almost cried again,the moment to left.
but someone was there.
and i didn't want her to see.
this post is toooo long.
stoppin soon,chill.
now.
where i do stand in your life?
am i still that person that brightend up your day?
i'm sorry i liked.
i should have seen this coming.
we could never be together now,
in my eyes.
cause we know,right now.
i'm heartbroken.
what about you?
for once i'll say this.
i love you.
and that's all.
bye.
it breaks my heart to see you now.
cause i know,i'm nothing,
i'm no popular kid.
or a good-looking boy.
but i know,
if you need me,i'll be there.
but all this while,
i was blinded by the fact that
i like you.
and for sure i still do.
that's it,i'm sorry for all bad things i've done.
and thank you
for the splendid time we've spent.
Bet you didn't know,the other day.
as you walked up the stairs,
tears rolled down my cheeks.
Devastated i was,seeing you gone.
i promised myself that i will never cry because of you.
but i did.not once,but plenty.
Now i'm wondering,you cried on the phone once.
Those tears,were they real?
Or were you just toying around with my feelings.
Tell me the truth,cause it would answer a lot.
i'm sorry i got angry.
but you just won't listen to me.
i almost cried again,the moment to left.
but someone was there.
and i didn't want her to see.
this post is toooo long.
stoppin soon,chill.
now.
where i do stand in your life?
am i still that person that brightend up your day?
i'm sorry i liked.
i should have seen this coming.
we could never be together now,
in my eyes.
cause we know,right now.
i'm heartbroken.
what about you?
for once i'll say this.
i love you.
and that's all.
bye.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 3:35 PM.
Friday, October 19, 2007
alright.
so i was missing in action.
big deal man.
who reads it anyway?
ok then,here's a summary of what's been goin on.and what's goin to happen.
i screwed up my exams.
i'm celebratin Hari Raya right now.
i've lost hope of goin to an Arts School.
my life's kinda fucked up.
i'm gonna be m-i-a again,cause i've got no internet at home.
i'm using my cousin's computer right noww.
ok,i have to go.
not really.
i just don't really feel like bloggin.you know what i mean?
har dee har.
bye!
so i was missing in action.
big deal man.
who reads it anyway?
ok then,here's a summary of what's been goin on.and what's goin to happen.
i screwed up my exams.
i'm celebratin Hari Raya right now.
i've lost hope of goin to an Arts School.
my life's kinda fucked up.
i'm gonna be m-i-a again,cause i've got no internet at home.
i'm using my cousin's computer right noww.
ok,i have to go.
not really.
i just don't really feel like bloggin.you know what i mean?
har dee har.
bye!
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 8:41 PM.
Friday, October 12, 2007
sometimes,i wonder.
why do i even bother?
you know.
forget it.
i shall just throw away.
everything i'd hoped.
my fucking ambitions.
i don't wanna be a soccer player.
why should i fulfill your dreams huh?
i have my own ones.
i wanna be a photographer.
the average joe.
the boy next door.
i hate you.
you're not even a father figure to me.
why?
why am i so hot-tempered like you?
that sucks.
it scares others.
sometimes i wish,you were dead.
but fortunately.
i have that little bit of respect left for you.
just fuck off.
no wait,don't.
get me.
a HOLGA,VIVITAR,SONY DSC H-3.
and then fuck off.
please.
and thank you.
and you.
stupid girl.
aiya.
just go be with him lah.
i'm just coming in between you both.
i feel bad about it,can?
i dunno.
seriously,tell me why you want me to stay?
and don't use the line,
"cause you're my bestfriend/danial afiq.so it's different"
thank you.
why do i even bother?
you know.
forget it.
i shall just throw away.
everything i'd hoped.
my fucking ambitions.
i don't wanna be a soccer player.
why should i fulfill your dreams huh?
i have my own ones.
i wanna be a photographer.
the average joe.
the boy next door.
i hate you.
you're not even a father figure to me.
why?
why am i so hot-tempered like you?
that sucks.
it scares others.
sometimes i wish,you were dead.
but fortunately.
i have that little bit of respect left for you.
just fuck off.
no wait,don't.
get me.
a HOLGA,VIVITAR,SONY DSC H-3.
and then fuck off.
please.
and thank you.
and you.
stupid girl.
aiya.
just go be with him lah.
i'm just coming in between you both.
i feel bad about it,can?
i dunno.
seriously,tell me why you want me to stay?
and don't use the line,
"cause you're my bestfriend/danial afiq.so it's different"
thank you.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:28 AM.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
DEBRAAAAAA!
haha.
so we met at CITY HALL.ok,i was late,fashionably late though.
er,maybe not.
shop closed at Penin.
so we went Esplanade.
what happened in between,was pure retardation.
haha.
she sun-tanned at Esplanade!! who would do that,and in their uniform?!
she's weird.i'm weirder.
walk backed,shop still closed.
next up,VIVOCITY!
ok,retarded man with screw loose.ME!
set at the huge amphitheatre?
collected money from sister,and went to catch
BALLS OF FURRY!
no wait.
BALLS OF FURY!
haha.movie had a predictable plot yo!
but watching it was fun.
especially if it was the two of us.
poke poke poke.
and before we left,i passed on to her some of my very own
HAPPY MOLECULES!
haha.
met Bestie afterwards at Wisma Food Republic.
no Justin ain't jealous cause i was disturbing emo Sam!
haha.
walked to Cine,where Reuben left to meet his pals.
emo and Justin went starbucks.
Bestie and me went to Penin to collect my pants.
thank goodness it was open.
haha,surveyed boots then.
and it was time to go.
sorry Bestie.made you go home late.
i buy you prata next time.
haha.
at least you got some
HAPPY MOLECULES too!
alright,
goodnight.
angels and demons.
Gods and Satans.
retards and assholes.
Posers and hardcore.
Boys and Girls.
fuckit.
goodnight everyone.
we shall go SENTOSA.
to have a proper sun-tan.
haha.
so we met at CITY HALL.ok,i was late,fashionably late though.
er,maybe not.
shop closed at Penin.
so we went Esplanade.
what happened in between,was pure retardation.
haha.
she sun-tanned at Esplanade!! who would do that,and in their uniform?!
she's weird.i'm weirder.
walk backed,shop still closed.
next up,VIVOCITY!
ok,retarded man with screw loose.ME!
set at the huge amphitheatre?
collected money from sister,and went to catch
BALLS OF FURRY!
no wait.
BALLS OF FURY!
haha.movie had a predictable plot yo!
but watching it was fun.
especially if it was the two of us.
poke poke poke.
and before we left,i passed on to her some of my very own
HAPPY MOLECULES!
haha.
met Bestie afterwards at Wisma Food Republic.
no Justin ain't jealous cause i was disturbing emo Sam!
haha.
walked to Cine,where Reuben left to meet his pals.
emo and Justin went starbucks.
Bestie and me went to Penin to collect my pants.
thank goodness it was open.
haha,surveyed boots then.
and it was time to go.
sorry Bestie.made you go home late.
i buy you prata next time.
haha.
at least you got some
HAPPY MOLECULES too!
alright,
goodnight.
angels and demons.
Gods and Satans.
retards and assholes.
Posers and hardcore.
Boys and Girls.
fuckit.
goodnight everyone.
we shall go SENTOSA.
to have a proper sun-tan.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 1:01 AM.
Monday, October 8, 2007
Bestie!
3 months!
haaha.
Che Guevara shot dead.today in history.8 october.
Bestie you rock.
you're my pillow.
my very comfortable pillow i like to lie on when i feel sleepy in the bus.
haha.
yes,today i puasa!
haha.
bestie failed in making me eat!
haha.
GRANDMA! i'm okay.really.
just so you know.
well,if you're actually reading that is.
and VANESSA. my 1.10!
haha.ok kidding.
take your time.
MOMMY.
ok,you're hot.
but not cool enough.
haha.
i love my bestie.
haha.
i feel retarded.
no wait,i am retarded.
damn you bestie.
haha.
you made me retarded.
i still love you though.
:)
3 months!
haaha.
Che Guevara shot dead.today in history.8 october.
Bestie you rock.
you're my pillow.
my very comfortable pillow i like to lie on when i feel sleepy in the bus.
haha.
yes,today i puasa!
haha.
bestie failed in making me eat!
haha.
GRANDMA! i'm okay.really.
just so you know.
well,if you're actually reading that is.
and VANESSA. my 1.10!
haha.ok kidding.
take your time.
MOMMY.
ok,you're hot.
but not cool enough.
haha.
i love my bestie.
haha.
i feel retarded.
no wait,i am retarded.
damn you bestie.
haha.
you made me retarded.
i still love you though.
:)
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 11:43 PM.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
game today.
at JALAN BESAR STADIUM.
woohoo!
against some Aussie team.they were cool.
we lost 3-1.
but guess what?
i scored the bloody consolation goal.
"a quick turn and he shoots with his left.it curls in and it's a goal!"
wow,i scored with my left damnit.
haha.
but i pulled a muscle during the final moments of the game.
damn,taken out.
ok,another on thursday.
ANYBODY WANNA COME AND WATCH US PLAY?
we'll be glad to have you watch us.
seriously,a simple pat on the back would have been good.
but you didn't even do it.
i scored a freaking goal at jalan besar stadium against some big-ass players.
it's a big deal to me,can?
you could have done better.
the only reason i'm playing soccer is because of you.
you wanted me so much to be one.
and i'm trying my best.
yet,you don't appreciate my efforts.
you know what,fuck you.
i shall pursue my own dreams.
i've got my OWN ambitions.
i'm human too,you know.
your fucking flesh and blood.
how i wish you aren't.
i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.
yes i know,academically i'm pretty darn stupid.
but at least i'm trying.
but you don't know.
you come home each day and say,
"everytime you're on the computer.did you even study?"
fuck you man.
you don't even know half of what's going on.
so just fuck off,go earn your money.
and spend it on me.
expecting me to be happy and forget.
forget how much i hate you.
it's not gonna work.
i'm growing up now,almost 15.
i'm not that immature.
so fuck you.
i hate you.
i don't care if i burn in hell for this.
because you've never shown me.
the love a kid should get from his own dad.
at JALAN BESAR STADIUM.
woohoo!
against some Aussie team.they were cool.
we lost 3-1.
but guess what?
i scored the bloody consolation goal.
"a quick turn and he shoots with his left.it curls in and it's a goal!"
wow,i scored with my left damnit.
haha.
but i pulled a muscle during the final moments of the game.
damn,taken out.
ok,another on thursday.
ANYBODY WANNA COME AND WATCH US PLAY?
we'll be glad to have you watch us.
seriously,a simple pat on the back would have been good.
but you didn't even do it.
i scored a freaking goal at jalan besar stadium against some big-ass players.
it's a big deal to me,can?
you could have done better.
the only reason i'm playing soccer is because of you.
you wanted me so much to be one.
and i'm trying my best.
yet,you don't appreciate my efforts.
you know what,fuck you.
i shall pursue my own dreams.
i've got my OWN ambitions.
i'm human too,you know.
your fucking flesh and blood.
how i wish you aren't.
i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.
yes i know,academically i'm pretty darn stupid.
but at least i'm trying.
but you don't know.
you come home each day and say,
"everytime you're on the computer.did you even study?"
fuck you man.
you don't even know half of what's going on.
so just fuck off,go earn your money.
and spend it on me.
expecting me to be happy and forget.
forget how much i hate you.
it's not gonna work.
i'm growing up now,almost 15.
i'm not that immature.
so fuck you.
i hate you.
i don't care if i burn in hell for this.
because you've never shown me.
the love a kid should get from his own dad.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 11:57 PM.
well.today played at the Gilette Futsal 3-v-3.
none of the our teams went through.
we were like 3-7 years younger than the other players,maybe more.
not like it matters but ya.
DAMN YOU IMRAN AND THE OTHERS!
because of you i humiliated myself in the juggling competition.
being the youngest and the second/third best?
haha.but it was all fun.
got a water bottle.
well,crashed Kieran's house and celebrated his mom's birthday.
yea,Cheryl? came for awhile.
then it was like with Kieran,Deborah,Debbie and me.doing nothing?!
just sitting at his front porch.
Dinner,rode to Gardens with Deborah sittin on the bike's body.
haha.fun.
well,shan't elaborate.
i don't really want anyone to know.
:)
the next part,is meant for someone.
so don't bother reading if the content's too long.
now tell me.
should i move on and stay as your best friend.
or wait for you.
i don't know.
we both know though,that losing the other is the end.
right?
you've got me,once more.
please girl,no more.
i'm all yours for the taking.
but it's ok.
like i've emphasised.
i'll be there.
i don't know.
cause moving on,i'll have one.
and someone/or a maybe a few ones.
know who.
just a little while longer,i'll wait.
and we'll see what God has in store for us.
though other beg to differ.
none of the our teams went through.
we were like 3-7 years younger than the other players,maybe more.
not like it matters but ya.
DAMN YOU IMRAN AND THE OTHERS!
because of you i humiliated myself in the juggling competition.
being the youngest and the second/third best?
haha.but it was all fun.
got a water bottle.
well,crashed Kieran's house and celebrated his mom's birthday.
yea,Cheryl? came for awhile.
then it was like with Kieran,Deborah,Debbie and me.doing nothing?!
just sitting at his front porch.
Dinner,rode to Gardens with Deborah sittin on the bike's body.
haha.fun.
well,shan't elaborate.
i don't really want anyone to know.
:)
the next part,is meant for someone.
so don't bother reading if the content's too long.
now tell me.
should i move on and stay as your best friend.
or wait for you.
i don't know.
we both know though,that losing the other is the end.
right?
you've got me,once more.
please girl,no more.
i'm all yours for the taking.
but it's ok.
like i've emphasised.
i'll be there.
i don't know.
cause moving on,i'll have one.
and someone/or a maybe a few ones.
know who.
just a little while longer,i'll wait.
and we'll see what God has in store for us.
though other beg to differ.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:21 AM.
Saturday, October 6, 2007
it's THREE in the MORNING.
and i'm still up.
this sucks,and
i have a competition in a few hours.
i played soccer after my papers.
went home,then to gardens!
today was spent with me at Macs,practically the whole time.
people came in and said hi.
bought their food,exchange goodbyes.
haha.
Kieran
Deborah & friend.
Mogan.
Kimberly & Celine.
Sherilyn & Gabe.
Paesan & friends.
Mommy!,
Nisssssa & friends.
ok enough.
met a bunch of assholes at Tavistock park.
darn you harrison,alvin,ronald,yilong and company.
haha.
ok,i admit.
i LOVE YOUR COOKIES.
but I LOVE YOU MORE.
:)
awww.you know i do.
very big.
very nice.
very sedap.
thank you.
it means so much that you baked it.
*hugs*
as if.
and i'm still up.
this sucks,and
i have a competition in a few hours.
i played soccer after my papers.
went home,then to gardens!
today was spent with me at Macs,practically the whole time.
people came in and said hi.
bought their food,exchange goodbyes.
haha.
Kieran
Deborah & friend.
Mogan.
Kimberly & Celine.
Sherilyn & Gabe.
Paesan & friends.
Mommy!,
Nisssssa & friends.
ok enough.
met a bunch of assholes at Tavistock park.
darn you harrison,alvin,ronald,yilong and company.
haha.
ok,i admit.
i LOVE YOUR COOKIES.
but I LOVE YOU MORE.
:)
awww.you know i do.
very big.
very nice.
very sedap.
thank you.
it means so much that you baked it.
*hugs*
as if.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 3:14 AM.
Friday, October 5, 2007
you know what?
screw it.
i'm not EMO.
so what if my posts are.
they don't reflect what i am.
argh.
my mind's spinning outta control.
and i can't stop it.
we're reaching a point where everything comes to an end.
ok maybe not,but it sure feels like.
exams seems so hard to complete.
self missions impossible to complete.
everything's getting more complicated.
or isit just me?
am i imagining it.is this a dream?
am i in a world where everything is wrong and anything right is wrong and vice versa.
what am i saying?
i'm going crazy.
oh wait,i am crazy.
i'm getting outta control.
knocking down friends like they were made out of cardboard.
oh darn it.
i've been like this these past few days.
no,i'm not EMO.
i just have a lot of feelings kept inside.
and i need a outlet for where i can let my feelings out.
screw those who read it.
they can judge all they want,but it's only the cover they see.
thanks for reading.if you actually did.
but ya,who reads this freaking EMO-influenced-posts blog of mine?
anyways.Debra and Nissa.
yup,they cool.
yes,you wanna play cupid?
alright,sure.
why not?
hah.
but i seriously doubt she'll like me.
so ya.
have fun girls.
screw it.
i'm not EMO.
so what if my posts are.
they don't reflect what i am.
argh.
my mind's spinning outta control.
and i can't stop it.
we're reaching a point where everything comes to an end.
ok maybe not,but it sure feels like.
exams seems so hard to complete.
self missions impossible to complete.
everything's getting more complicated.
or isit just me?
am i imagining it.is this a dream?
am i in a world where everything is wrong and anything right is wrong and vice versa.
what am i saying?
i'm going crazy.
oh wait,i am crazy.
i'm getting outta control.
knocking down friends like they were made out of cardboard.
oh darn it.
i've been like this these past few days.
no,i'm not EMO.
i just have a lot of feelings kept inside.
and i need a outlet for where i can let my feelings out.
screw those who read it.
they can judge all they want,but it's only the cover they see.
thanks for reading.if you actually did.
but ya,who reads this freaking EMO-influenced-posts blog of mine?
anyways.Debra and Nissa.
yup,they cool.
yes,you wanna play cupid?
alright,sure.
why not?
hah.
but i seriously doubt she'll like me.
so ya.
have fun girls.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:08 AM.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
someone said my posts were to EMO.
well.
words.
my way of expressing how i feel.
:)
i shall try this.
sleep after i'm done with this post.
wake up for sahur(you know,breakfast) and not sleep.then study!
lets hope i wake up.
or else i'm screwed.
ok.
haha.
i'm feeling better,
thanks to friends
whose names i shall not mention.
wait some guys will feel.
umm,like girls?
ok,randomness.
i need some sleep,yo!
so goodnight!
i'm not sleeping late.
infact i'm sleeping early,early in the morning!
oh bestie.what will i do without you?
haha
well.
words.
my way of expressing how i feel.
:)
i shall try this.
sleep after i'm done with this post.
wake up for sahur(you know,breakfast) and not sleep.then study!
lets hope i wake up.
or else i'm screwed.
ok.
haha.
i'm feeling better,
thanks to friends
whose names i shall not mention.
wait some guys will feel.
umm,like girls?
ok,randomness.
i need some sleep,yo!
so goodnight!
i'm not sleeping late.
infact i'm sleeping early,early in the morning!
oh bestie.what will i do without you?
haha
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:08 AM.
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
thanks Accounts.you've made my day.
pffft.
Thanks Bestie.you really made my day.
:)
just stop.
you don't have to put a front anymore.
you don't even have to acknowledge my presence.
cause You said,i don't even bother.
you wanna know how i really feel?
you should know.
seriously,go on.
follow them.
i give up.i give up trying.
to talk to you.
or even say 'hi'.
you know how i felt seeing you there at LJS?
forget it.
you don't have to know.
ugh.
why?
just go ok.
forget me.
i'll keep it short,since
i've got nothing much to say to you,right?
DEBRA!
she's cool.
no,don't you dare matchmake us.
i won't buy you Gelare. :p
NISSA!
she's Nissa.
that all you need to know. :D
VANESSA!
the crumpler isn't fake.
the fake ones have no symbol at all.
BESTIE!
yup,she rocks.
ans she's mine. :p
KIMBO!
you stooopid girl.
i'm your sunshine.
pffft.
Thanks Bestie.you really made my day.
:)
just stop.
you don't have to put a front anymore.
you don't even have to acknowledge my presence.
cause You said,i don't even bother.
you wanna know how i really feel?
you should know.
seriously,go on.
follow them.
i give up.i give up trying.
to talk to you.
or even say 'hi'.
you know how i felt seeing you there at LJS?
forget it.
you don't have to know.
ugh.
why?
just go ok.
forget me.
i'll keep it short,since
i've got nothing much to say to you,right?
DEBRA!
she's cool.
no,don't you dare matchmake us.
i won't buy you Gelare. :p
NISSA!
she's Nissa.
that all you need to know. :D
VANESSA!
the crumpler isn't fake.
the fake ones have no symbol at all.
BESTIE!
yup,she rocks.
ans she's mine. :p
KIMBO!
you stooopid girl.
i'm your sunshine.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 9:51 PM.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
i can't believe that you would do that.
and even did what i thought you wouldn't.
but hey,
people change don't they.
i wanna bang my head,against the concrete wall.
& tell you how i feel.
you can't stop me.
don't even bother trying to.
it's funny how you were one.
and now,you're not.
who are they?
your future is in your hands.
how you mould it,shape it.
it's up to you.
why do i even bother anymore?
who i'm with isn't any of your concern.
whether i get my tongue pierced.
or get together with someone else.
or turn EMO
and self-mutilate again.
or even start smoking.
it's all me.
i'll be the one making the decisions.
forced or not.
because i know.
i'll only have myself to blame for my own foolishness.
alright,go on and be like them.
i don't know you anymore.
and even did what i thought you wouldn't.
but hey,
people change don't they.
i wanna bang my head,against the concrete wall.
& tell you how i feel.
you can't stop me.
don't even bother trying to.
it's funny how you were one.
and now,you're not.
who are they?
your future is in your hands.
how you mould it,shape it.
it's up to you.
why do i even bother anymore?
who i'm with isn't any of your concern.
whether i get my tongue pierced.
or get together with someone else.
or turn EMO
and self-mutilate again.
or even start smoking.
it's all me.
i'll be the one making the decisions.
forced or not.
because i know.
i'll only have myself to blame for my own foolishness.
alright,go on and be like them.
i don't know you anymore.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 11:30 PM.
man,i didn't fast again.
this sucks man.
oh,thanks for the cookies.
that $10. shall be my emergency cash.
library but never studied.
went Gardens to Tanned Coconut's house.
didn't study either.
dinner at Macs,met Mogan. no studying.
walked to Kieran's.played XBOX
and decided to study.
or at least try to.
i shouldn't have.and i'm sorry.
i'm not in the right frame of mind to think of anything.
but the exams are here.
you know how fucking screwed i am.
English was already so hard.
it just demoralised me even more than i already am.
no one.
i tell you,no one can cheer me up.
this sucks man.
oh,thanks for the cookies.
that $10. shall be my emergency cash.
library but never studied.
went Gardens to Tanned Coconut's house.
didn't study either.
dinner at Macs,met Mogan. no studying.
walked to Kieran's.played XBOX
and decided to study.
or at least try to.
i shouldn't have.and i'm sorry.
i'm not in the right frame of mind to think of anything.
but the exams are here.
you know how fucking screwed i am.
English was already so hard.
it just demoralised me even more than i already am.
no one.
i tell you,no one can cheer me up.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:13 AM.
Monday, October 1, 2007
today marks the day.
Happy Childrens' Day.
if we were still in primary school,it would be a holiday.
but now,i'm fifteen,Sec 3.
and the first major EOY paper begins.
pfffft.
English!
i'm so gonna fail it.
and get retained.
my parents can start rehearsing what they wanna yell and scream at me.
and my dad,he can beat me up for all i care.
how i wish i had a lum sum of cash.
so i can buy a dunking machine for my best friend!
yes,my dear,i still remember.
right now,this is how i want life to be.
excluding me trying to study and concentrate on that!
yea you right.
i kinda miss the old me too.
but i'd never thought,
you actually took notice of me.
how i was back then,
how i was in the relationship and
then now, the very moment we're living in.
i thank you.
for the wonderful almost 2 years we've been friends.
it's been wonderful.
i love my bestfriend.
Happy Childrens' Day.
if we were still in primary school,it would be a holiday.
but now,i'm fifteen,Sec 3.
and the first major EOY paper begins.
pfffft.
English!
i'm so gonna fail it.
and get retained.
my parents can start rehearsing what they wanna yell and scream at me.
and my dad,he can beat me up for all i care.
how i wish i had a lum sum of cash.
so i can buy a dunking machine for my best friend!
yes,my dear,i still remember.
right now,this is how i want life to be.
excluding me trying to study and concentrate on that!
yea you right.
i kinda miss the old me too.
but i'd never thought,
you actually took notice of me.
how i was back then,
how i was in the relationship and
then now, the very moment we're living in.
i thank you.
for the wonderful almost 2 years we've been friends.
it's been wonderful.
i love my bestfriend.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 1:22 AM.