Thursday, August 30, 2007
i'm holding back my tears
as i talk to you.
overshadowed by my fears
i don't know what to do.
ah.
i hate having this feeling.
going through the motions.
just with another being.
you know what?
fuck life.
mutilating oneself is better anyway.
i hate to see you sad.
it makes me feel as though i'm a failure.
but when you look at me,i forget everything.
only the past that isn't fading.
i'm sorry dearest.
i suck.
i sure do.
as i talk to you.
overshadowed by my fears
i don't know what to do.
ah.
i hate having this feeling.
going through the motions.
just with another being.
you know what?
fuck life.
mutilating oneself is better anyway.
i hate to see you sad.
it makes me feel as though i'm a failure.
but when you look at me,i forget everything.
only the past that isn't fading.
i'm sorry dearest.
i suck.
i sure do.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:59 AM.
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
i didn't go to school.
i went polyclinic.
then to j8.
then back home.
i really don't know.
i'm dying inside.
smiling outside.
life ain't perfect.
not even the sunset.
i just want you guys to check out the lyrics below.*points to the previous post*
it's beautiful.
mayday parade is awesome.
i'm goin to sleep now.
goodnight everyone.
goodmorning you asses on the other side.
goodafternoon you people on that side.
ah.sleepless nights.
i went polyclinic.
then to j8.
then back home.
i really don't know.
i'm dying inside.
smiling outside.
life ain't perfect.
not even the sunset.
i just want you guys to check out the lyrics below.*points to the previous post*
it's beautiful.
mayday parade is awesome.
i'm goin to sleep now.
goodnight everyone.
goodmorning you asses on the other side.
goodafternoon you people on that side.
ah.sleepless nights.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:23 AM.
MAYDAY PARADE LYRICS
"Three Cheers For Five Years"
I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you (I had in you)
Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop cryingT
his anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same
I thought with a month I would call
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see 'us', not 'you and me'
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering (an offering)
Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same
And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember you now
Remember you now
So sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
Sleep alone tonight.
(How does he feel, how does he kiss)So sleep alone tonight.
(How does he taste when he's on your lips.)With no one here just by your side
(How does he feel, how does he kiss)
Sleep alone tonight.[x3]
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forget yo
uI know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
"Three Cheers For Five Years"
I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you (I had in you)
Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop cryingT
his anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same
I thought with a month I would call
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see 'us', not 'you and me'
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering (an offering)
Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same
And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember you now
Remember you now
So sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
Sleep alone tonight.
(How does he feel, how does he kiss)So sleep alone tonight.
(How does he taste when he's on your lips.)With no one here just by your side
(How does he feel, how does he kiss)
Sleep alone tonight.[x3]
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forget yo
uI know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:09 AM.
Monday, August 27, 2007
usual day at school.
never ever cool.
ooh,it rhymes!haha.
today i had lit and emath tests!
thank God i remembered chapter 31 of To Kill A Mockingbird,or else i wouldn't know what
to write at all!
and and,last minute revision during recess helped abit with my Emath.though i still doubt i'll pass.maybe not now,but sooner,in the near future!
after school,stayed back,filed up my Chemistry worksheets.oh wait,i don't have a file!
around 4,we were all geared up for training,already an hour late.
nothin much happened during soccer,just the normal routine training.
after training,i had dinner with my BESTIE!yay!
ahh,finally tried the Mutton Chop.so spicy,and sedap!
darn,i have malay homework which is due in three days.
she almost said to hand it in tmr,but we begged,pleaded for leniency!
ahh.
never ever cool.
ooh,it rhymes!haha.
today i had lit and emath tests!
thank God i remembered chapter 31 of To Kill A Mockingbird,or else i wouldn't know what
to write at all!
and and,last minute revision during recess helped abit with my Emath.though i still doubt i'll pass.maybe not now,but sooner,in the near future!
after school,stayed back,filed up my Chemistry worksheets.oh wait,i don't have a file!
around 4,we were all geared up for training,already an hour late.
nothin much happened during soccer,just the normal routine training.
after training,i had dinner with my BESTIE!yay!
ahh,finally tried the Mutton Chop.so spicy,and sedap!
darn,i have malay homework which is due in three days.
she almost said to hand it in tmr,but we begged,pleaded for leniency!
ahh.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 8:14 PM.
Sunday, August 26, 2007
yesterday.er,i went to meet Marilyn and Pearlyn at Marina.
but before that,i collected my specs!
hahah."take off your specs lah!you look like a father."stupid rubbish bin.
wanted to watch water fest.but went ps instead.
went carrefour,Pearlyn bought sushi,then Bk,for my dinner.
followed them to Gardens,where they were to have their dinner and then go Church.
stupid shit,i had to follow all the way,cause Marilyn 'stole' my bag!
then then,Aaron Ang saw me at the stop,volunteered to give me a ride,then ended goin to his house and watched soccer!
haha.until 11++,then we went for supper with KIERAN,that girl,her friend,this girl,Ernest,Balthazar,Vanessa,Pearlyn and Marilyn.
until 12.30 am!!!
so i rode Ang's bike home.
slep ard 4?woke up at 7.20 instead of 6!!
rushed,showered,cycled to Ang's house,returned his bike,and jogged to Hougang Point for
MaCDONALDS!!!
is that all?yea i guess so.
but before that,i collected my specs!
hahah."take off your specs lah!you look like a father."stupid rubbish bin.
wanted to watch water fest.but went ps instead.
went carrefour,Pearlyn bought sushi,then Bk,for my dinner.
followed them to Gardens,where they were to have their dinner and then go Church.
stupid shit,i had to follow all the way,cause Marilyn 'stole' my bag!
then then,Aaron Ang saw me at the stop,volunteered to give me a ride,then ended goin to his house and watched soccer!
haha.until 11++,then we went for supper with KIERAN,that girl,her friend,this girl,Ernest,Balthazar,Vanessa,Pearlyn and Marilyn.
until 12.30 am!!!
so i rode Ang's bike home.
slep ard 4?woke up at 7.20 instead of 6!!
rushed,showered,cycled to Ang's house,returned his bike,and jogged to Hougang Point for
MaCDONALDS!!!
is that all?yea i guess so.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 10:19 AM.
Saturday, August 25, 2007
thanks Augustine.
thanks Mike.
whatever,i'm still not EMO.
do not associate me with them.
alamak you,poor thing.
it was you?
no it wasn't.like i want to.
i like my deviantart.
and i want a polaroid to call me own.
or maybe a new camera and phone.
thanks Mike.
whatever,i'm still not EMO.
do not associate me with them.
alamak you,poor thing.
it was you?
no it wasn't.like i want to.
i like my deviantart.
and i want a polaroid to call me own.
or maybe a new camera and phone.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:51 AM.
Friday, August 24, 2007
PHOOOOOOOOOOOEI!!
that's what i wanna do when i see your face,but it's ok.
whatever.
oops.
Marilyn Tan,you stupid bestie!
maybe not stupid,cause you helped me with math.
hahaha.
Rosy!hello.
are you readin this?
not like you can answer straightaway or anythin ah.
eh you,don't live in denial!
ooh,sounds like Danial!
hahaha
that's what i wanna do when i see your face,but it's ok.
whatever.
oops.
Marilyn Tan,you stupid bestie!
maybe not stupid,cause you helped me with math.
hahaha.
Rosy!hello.
are you readin this?
not like you can answer straightaway or anythin ah.
eh you,don't live in denial!
ooh,sounds like Danial!
hahaha
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 8:20 PM.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
i really want this to happen.
but,why can't i forget her?
she's trying to move on.
i did,but a part of me didn't want to.
how childish.
living in a lie.
fucking rubbish.
this life of mine.
i live in my own dream world.
where everyone is happy.
and when i wake up,
everyone starts to hate me.
the smiles have faded.
you mumbled,"i'm movin on".
the words you said left me jaded.
now,how do i carry on?
eh,that wasn't a poem.
but if you wish to think so,it's fine with me.
just use the lines with my permission.
but,why can't i forget her?
she's trying to move on.
i did,but a part of me didn't want to.
how childish.
living in a lie.
fucking rubbish.
this life of mine.
i live in my own dream world.
where everyone is happy.
and when i wake up,
everyone starts to hate me.
the smiles have faded.
you mumbled,"i'm movin on".
the words you said left me jaded.
now,how do i carry on?
eh,that wasn't a poem.
but if you wish to think so,it's fine with me.
just use the lines with my permission.
Labels: unseen
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 7:59 PM.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
you know what.
shit lah.
i can't stop falling for you,and that is bad.
everytime we're together,the feeling,it's wonderful.
splendid.
but i guess. i have to.
you want to move on,and you like him alr.
maybe,in the future,we will.only time will tell.
it's weird how.though i had crushes on your two close friends.
i still had the biggest crush on you.
you're fun.
total opposite of them.
though annoying(oops),i can't never get angry with you.
even if i do,it doesn't last long.
this was supposed to be my personal diary entry.
but i have to let you know.
and i think this is the best way.
i hope you know who you are,you goon.
thanks,i've never had this feeling before.
and i hope it lasts forever,whatever our status are.
woah,did i make sense there?
i guess i did.
the whole night i was thinking about this!
shit lah.
i can't stop falling for you,and that is bad.
everytime we're together,the feeling,it's wonderful.
splendid.
but i guess. i have to.
you want to move on,and you like him alr.
maybe,in the future,we will.only time will tell.
it's weird how.though i had crushes on your two close friends.
i still had the biggest crush on you.
you're fun.
total opposite of them.
though annoying(oops),i can't never get angry with you.
even if i do,it doesn't last long.
this was supposed to be my personal diary entry.
but i have to let you know.
and i think this is the best way.
i hope you know who you are,you goon.
thanks,i've never had this feeling before.
and i hope it lasts forever,whatever our status are.
woah,did i make sense there?
i guess i did.
the whole night i was thinking about this!
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 11:56 PM.
today was normal.
i stayed back for Malay.and i got 36/50!A2 for Compo! yay me!
didn't go j8.didn't see Marilyn.
but but i met someone else. :)
figured out my Math question at Macs with her.went home.
and and.Mindi sent me my pictures!yay!
i tell you.she rocks at action photography.but not abstract.haha
i like them.i shall put them up.some at least.
meeting Marilyn and Pearlyn.i want to study.but i don't think i will.darn them.
anyways.yea,personal ya.besties are welcome to ask what is goin on!
me,Renee and Mindi.
just nice.
motions.
Chua lookin,Mike sittin,Lim standing
over Kieran.
attempting a jump over this tall ass!
i like this.
i can walk on walls,literally.
levitate.
maybe not.just reaching for the ceiling.
pictures were mostly taken by Mindi on Chris' birthday!
Marina Square area.
MINDI THE SUPERGIRL!
she's the one with the specs.
RENEE SAYS SHE'S CUTE!
whatever makes her happy
i stayed back for Malay.and i got 36/50!A2 for Compo! yay me!
didn't go j8.didn't see Marilyn.
but but i met someone else. :)
figured out my Math question at Macs with her.went home.
and and.Mindi sent me my pictures!yay!
i tell you.she rocks at action photography.but not abstract.haha
i like them.i shall put them up.some at least.
meeting Marilyn and Pearlyn.i want to study.but i don't think i will.darn them.
anyways.yea,personal ya.besties are welcome to ask what is goin on!
me,Renee and Mindi.
just nice.
motions.
Chua lookin,Mike sittin,Lim standing
over Kieran.
attempting a jump over this tall ass!
i like this.
i can walk on walls,literally.
levitate.
maybe not.just reaching for the ceiling.
pictures were mostly taken by Mindi on Chris' birthday!
Marina Square area.
MINDI THE SUPERGIRL!
she's the one with the specs.
RENEE SAYS SHE'S CUTE!
whatever makes her happy
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:46 AM.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
been down lately.
where's that retardation,randomness and weirdness?
ok,i think
-i bring only temporary happiness.somethin that won't last long.
-i'm selfish,not botherin about others.
-i suck at being a bestfriend and a boyfriend and adolescent teenage boy
-i'm a son-of-a-bitch.
i dunno.
but i do know.i have friends that i can trust!
you guys know who you are.
and i thank you all,for being there when i need you guys.
where's that retardation,randomness and weirdness?
ok,i think
-i bring only temporary happiness.somethin that won't last long.
-i'm selfish,not botherin about others.
-i suck at being a bestfriend and a boyfriend and adolescent teenage boy
-i'm a son-of-a-bitch.
i dunno.
but i do know.i have friends that i can trust!
you guys know who you are.
and i thank you all,for being there when i need you guys.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:36 AM.
Monday, August 20, 2007
it's been a rather happy day.the usual,laughs,random stuffs and crap.
ok,maybe not.
i don't know.
i thought,maybe i can start concentrating on my studies.
i was almost there,only to have more problems.
who can i turn to? Damian?Kieran?Shengyi?Keith?
they are just the few i trust so much.Marilyn?i trust her even more.but it's different tellin her.
i'm ever so selfish
all day,everyday.
it seems that maybe i don't deserve you stupid girl.
and maybe i do deserve all this shit that i have to overcome,alone.
don't help me girl.
i don't wanna be a burden to anyone anymore.
ok,maybe not.
i don't know.
i thought,maybe i can start concentrating on my studies.
i was almost there,only to have more problems.
who can i turn to? Damian?Kieran?Shengyi?Keith?
they are just the few i trust so much.Marilyn?i trust her even more.but it's different tellin her.
i'm ever so selfish
all day,everyday.
it seems that maybe i don't deserve you stupid girl.
and maybe i do deserve all this shit that i have to overcome,alone.
don't help me girl.
i don't wanna be a burden to anyone anymore.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 10:47 PM.
Sunday, August 19, 2007
best friends have fun together don't they?
i'm sorry. i guess i was too scared to admit it back then.
you seem to have lost faith in me.
i'm seeing less of you now.and i hate that.
i want us to have fun again.to the extent of being oblivious to everythin around us.
i want that Forum date
to go ice-skating.
to have fun at Toys-r-Us.
go to the Changi Airport.
go Wild Wild Wet and cycling at East Coast.
just the two of us.
is that too much?
i love you bestfriend.
and i mean it.
from the bottom of my heart,even if it's black/red and emo.
i'm sorry. i guess i was too scared to admit it back then.
you seem to have lost faith in me.
i'm seeing less of you now.and i hate that.
i want us to have fun again.to the extent of being oblivious to everythin around us.
i want that Forum date
to go ice-skating.
to have fun at Toys-r-Us.
go to the Changi Airport.
go Wild Wild Wet and cycling at East Coast.
just the two of us.
is that too much?
i love you bestfriend.
and i mean it.
from the bottom of my heart,even if it's black/red and emo.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 11:06 PM.
And just to soften the blow
I'll steal all of your kisses
And sew them up
In the creases of our hearts.
i like.he means,FUCK YOU!
and the guy across the road says,"you wanna die ah?"
"oh yes,please uncle.oops,you ain't got balls to kill me,"the boy replies.
Labels: emo
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 1:34 AM.
you know what.
let me cry.
just kill me please.oh.the excitement of killin,just do it!
i'm sorry for bein an embarrasment to you.i'm sorry you thought yourself as the SUBSTITUTE.
i'm sorry.
can i self-mutilate now?
it's killing me by just not doing it you know.
let me cry.
just kill me please.oh.the excitement of killin,just do it!
i'm sorry for bein an embarrasment to you.i'm sorry you thought yourself as the SUBSTITUTE.
i'm sorry.
can i self-mutilate now?
it's killing me by just not doing it you know.
Labels: emo
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 1:19 AM.
Friday, August 17, 2007
finally,after how many days,we chatted on the phone!
sorry lah,bestfriend!
i love my bestfriend :D
as usual,we crap alot.or maybe it's just me.
oh today,i plyed soccer after school till like 5?
suprisingly,i wasn't playin with the usual people(Mike,Imran,Ang,Kieran,Moley etc)
then i went home,slacked,showered and went to Gardens to get my haircut
met Kieran,who led me to the barber shop.and marilyn was there too.they both had tuitions
Harrison,Alvin?,Ben and Lucas were there too.and Sarah. :)alvin right?
haha.prata with Marilyn afterwards cancelled!though i did ate prata while waitin for her to end.
nah,so i kinda went home.
and i'm goin to sleep now.nights!
i like the way my hair is growin.but not the back!
sorry lah,bestfriend!
i love my bestfriend :D
as usual,we crap alot.or maybe it's just me.
oh today,i plyed soccer after school till like 5?
suprisingly,i wasn't playin with the usual people(Mike,Imran,Ang,Kieran,Moley etc)
then i went home,slacked,showered and went to Gardens to get my haircut
met Kieran,who led me to the barber shop.and marilyn was there too.they both had tuitions
Harrison,Alvin?,Ben and Lucas were there too.and Sarah. :)alvin right?
haha.prata with Marilyn afterwards cancelled!though i did ate prata while waitin for her to end.
nah,so i kinda went home.
and i'm goin to sleep now.nights!
i like the way my hair is growin.but not the back!
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:54 AM.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
after school,junction 8 for lunch
at KFC,Augustine,Lim,Kieran and me were seated at one table
and suddenly talked about marriage.
us inviting one another and speculating whether my future wife will be Malay or Chinese!
hahaha
next,playground catching/ice and water.chased out by security.
then took some pics of jacob biscuits' sculpures.
lastly,block catching behing the CC.ard 30-45 mins.
hahaha.oh,i threw ice across the jacob biscuits fair?!
at KFC,Augustine,Lim,Kieran and me were seated at one table
and suddenly talked about marriage.
us inviting one another and speculating whether my future wife will be Malay or Chinese!
hahaha
next,playground catching/ice and water.chased out by security.
then took some pics of jacob biscuits' sculpures.
lastly,block catching behing the CC.ard 30-45 mins.
hahaha.oh,i threw ice across the jacob biscuits fair?!
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 1:10 AM.
Monday, August 13, 2007
screw school!
i ain't got any motivation.
i just want to take pictures...
and lead a simple life,with as little problems as possible.
i guess not.
for everything,you need a ceritficate,documents.EDUCATION.
no,i'm not dissing the MOE.
just wondering,they have SSS for super talented athletes of tomorrow.
that's secondary school level!
why is NAFA,SOTA,La Selle for poly/JC levels?
even if they is,it's like super exclusive.
oh what's the point?
no one is gonna read my blog and say
"hey,this kid is right!"
finally,arts scene is coming out in Singapore.
but not much in secondary school level just as yet.
yea,screw this.
my future ain't so bright anyway.
and i'm not that book smart type.
i'm sorry Singapore.
you can cancel me from the "future prospects" list.or whatever
i ain't got any motivation.
i just want to take pictures...
and lead a simple life,with as little problems as possible.
i guess not.
for everything,you need a ceritficate,documents.EDUCATION.
no,i'm not dissing the MOE.
just wondering,they have SSS for super talented athletes of tomorrow.
that's secondary school level!
why is NAFA,SOTA,La Selle for poly/JC levels?
even if they is,it's like super exclusive.
oh what's the point?
no one is gonna read my blog and say
"hey,this kid is right!"
finally,arts scene is coming out in Singapore.
but not much in secondary school level just as yet.
yea,screw this.
my future ain't so bright anyway.
and i'm not that book smart type.
i'm sorry Singapore.
you can cancel me from the "future prospects" list.or whatever
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 10:20 PM.
5 August 2007!
well,i hope it doesn't turn out bad.
i really really do.
i was selfish,immature,childish in my first one,no doubt.
and i'm sorry.
thanks for the offer anyway.for the fireworks
well,i hope it doesn't turn out bad.
i really really do.
i was selfish,immature,childish in my first one,no doubt.
and i'm sorry.
thanks for the offer anyway.for the fireworks
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 10:11 PM.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
yay! Rosy you rock!!
hahahaha
thank you oh-so-much!
it's no wonder Afiq loves Rosy
who's Afiq huh?!
hahaha
i'm bored.
motionless for once.
hahahaha
thank you oh-so-much!
it's no wonder Afiq loves Rosy
who's Afiq huh?!
hahaha
i'm bored.
motionless for once.
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 12:55 AM.
Friday, August 10, 2007
let's see if this works,yeah?
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 4:36 AM.
hello!
er,my new blog!
same ol' url though!
hahaha
at this very moment,i'm searchin for a nice layout!
i dunno if anyone is gonna read it this time though
hahaha
later
Adios!
er,my new blog!
same ol' url though!
hahaha
at this very moment,i'm searchin for a nice layout!
i dunno if anyone is gonna read it this time though
hahaha
later
Adios!
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most. 1:16 AM.